Heartache...honesty

I know a lot of you can relate to heartache. I know that many people I know and "know" through blogland are aching as well. Today my heart aches so much it hurts. It hurts to think, I feel like wandering aimlessly somewhere hoping that where I get to there won't be any more aching, that there Jackson will be home, Ryan will be with Kristin. But even as I wander through stores aimlessly or around the neighborhood I don't ever come to that place. Wandering doesn't make the hurt go away, the cold air doesn't make the hurt go away, snow on my pants or cold hands and cheeks doesn't make the pain go away either.

Kristin wrote a post today that was encouraging, here is a portion:

"Weeping may endure for a night, but joy comes in the morning." Psalm 30:5 Dave Branon (Our Daily Bread 12/1/2008) wrote: For now, those of us who weep can dwell on hope instead of hopelessness and anticipation instead of sorrow. It may be nighttime in our hearts, but just ahead lies the dawn of eternity. And with, God promises the endless joy of heavenly morning."

I feel as though my night is neverending and I wonder if/when morning is really coming. Today I just hurt, my heart hurts and it aches painfully so for my baby/toddler/growing boy to be home.