I have decided that I am a roller coaster of a person these days, and have been for my whole life! Not that I am proud of that at all but it's the truth. Let me explain. My thoughts are just all over the place; one minute I can conquer anything, the next I am a total failure. I wake up feeling fit and great and an hr later I am a huge pregnant elephant too lazy to put dishes away. One minute I am totally ready for baby #4 the next I am not ready to be done being pregnant. Get it?! A roller coaster of thoughts/feelings/actions. I need consistency! I need JESUS! I am so thankful for God and His gift of Life to me! It is in this LIFE that I find my true life! My firm foundation. The smooth road. The way OFF the emotional roller coaster! I am getting better at taking my thoughts captive and living each moment in my true identity with God's Good News of the Gospel covering each of my mistakes and successes!
This post is not going to be long or in-depth as my mind is just not capable of that :). But I did want to get on paper my thankfulness for God's great love and Authority over my life! Being on this roller coaster hasn't rocked me quite as much this week as it has in the past. I am able to see it as it is, step off quicker, grab hold of Jesus and take another step on SOLID ground. I am not sure life will ever stop being a roller coaster but how long I choose to stay on the sinfulness side of it is diminishing and for that I am grateful I am NOT how I see my day! My identity is NOT made up of the choices I make or don't make good or bad. I need Jesus not only for my bad days but for ALL my days! and so, each day, today included, several times throughout the day I will take ALL the reminders of my need for Jesus, both good & bad and choose to embrace Him and worship!
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Oh Kandy. You are so not the only one. I feel that way too. Today is one. I felt great this morning when I woke up saying we are on track for a great day. then my youngest was up. I had not even had my coffee yet and the day is not even over and yeah we have gone from doing school work early to after lunch to let take the day off. Its Friday right. LOL Totally get it. Blessings.
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