Friday, September 26, 2008
Hard
This trial is wearing on me. I am tiring. I am feeling extremely weak, physically, emotionally and unfortunately even spiritually. Because I am worn out I am lacking the discipline required to chose JOY, to chose CHRIST, to chose to TRUST, to chose to REST in HIS PROMISES. My eyes have been stuck on the situation and it is ugly, hard, scary, did I mention hard, oh yes very hard!!! I was reminded that God's love and HIS PEACE is attainable by chosing to TRUST HIM. I have to have much more discipline to keep my eyes on HIM, keep my mind focused on HIS WORD and not allow my mind to be stuck in this world. The things that are seen do not last forever but the unseen things, ie, what God is doing, is eternal. How I long to see what Jesus sees. How I long to just have a tiny glimpse of what the other side of this trial brings. Oh how I wish God would tell me, November will be beautiful and December even better. But He doesn't make those promises. In fact He doesn't even promise me tomorrow. What He does promise is PEACE in midst of chaos, HOPE in the midst of hopelessness, LOVE in the midst of hatred, JOY in the midst of depression/sadness, and an eternity with John, Jackson, and JESUS!! Oh God please help me keep my eyes on you. Help me run the race with steadfastness for I am tiring out. Lord God, please help me to trust that you are working, that this will work out for your glory and our good (Rom 8). Help me to rebuke satan when he attempts to destroy all you have given. Father please end this trial soon!
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Hi Kandy,
Thank you for your sweet message. I want you to know that we will be praying for you as you face the trials set before you. Though I don't know exaclty what you are going through, I do know that God sets trials before us to encourage us and to help us grow. And no, it's certainly not always easy to TRUST! I will pray for your peace, that can only be found through Him! I would love to keep in contact with you - so please know that you can turn to me anytime you need extra prayers, love or support. Girls like us (sisters in Christ) really must do our best to stick together! :)
Much love and many blessings,
Kelly
I heard a Casting Crowns Song that made me thing of you and was so relevant to your post. PRAISE HIM IN THE STORM!!!:
I was sure by now,God, that You would have reached down and wiped our tears away, stepped in and saved the day. But once again, I say amen and it's still raining
as the thunder rolls I barely hear You whisper through the rain, "I'm with you" and as Your mercy falls I raise my hands and praise the God who gives and takes away.
Chorus:
And I'll praise you in this storm
and I will lift my hands for You are who You are no matter where I am and every tear I've cried You hold in your hand You never left my side and though my heart is torn I will praise You in this storm
I remember when I stumbled in the wind You heard my cry to You
and raised me up again my strength is almost gone how can I carry on
if I can't find You and as the thunder rolls I barely hear You whisper through the rain "I'm with you"and as Your mercy falls I raise my hands and praise the God who gives and takes away
I lift my eyes onto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth
I lift my eyes onto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth
Hey Kandy,
Thank you for being open and honest in the midst of all the hard things you are having to deal with right now. I know I'm probably like most people who know you three, that I wish there was something I could do to make all of this go away right now. But please know that you are never far from our thoughts. We are constantly praying for you all. And more than that, so many around us continue in faithfulness to pray for you. Katie and I are constantly stopped at church, around town, at meetings, and asked how things are going, because people are personally invested in prayer for you. I know that doesn't make everything better, but please know that there really are (literally) thousands of people praying that this will all resolve in the Truth, soon.
We love you! We and our friends, family, church families are praying with diligence.
Lord, even right this moment may Kandy and John and Jackson feel your arms wrap them up and hold on to them. Let your peace seep into their very being. We ask that your love and strength would well up in them in ways that they never knew was possible. Anoint them with the power of your Spirit to endure with trust in you. Lord, your Word states that you are able to do more than we could ask or imagine, and I pray that you would just blow us all away as you continue to be with John, Kandy, and Jackson. May they see your depth and width and height even more fully as you lead them through this terrible wilderness. Father, we ask you to intervene. We ask you to uphold what is right. And in all things we trust your will to be done. Help us in the midst of our questions and hurts. Lord, we know you are big enough for them. Hear our hearts cry, and bring justice to this situation. We ask this in the name and blood of Christ himself. Amen.
Love you guys!
Scott
(Eph. 3:14-21)
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